Wednesday, July 18, 2018

I didn't really want to do this

I weighed myself this morning and had NO intention of reporting it on my blog.  But here I am, for whatever reason, letting you know the verdict.  I'm 236.5. That's 5 pounds higher than I was on New Year's Day.  But I guess gaining 5 pounds in 7 months isn't the end of the world.  I SHOULD be able to lose that again, right?

Ok, now if I can just find the motivation to exercise.

Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Everybody has a reason to begin again

I've been making an effort.  A real one.  I walked 3 miles on Sunday and did it again today.  

I pulled out the dumbbells last night and did a few arms/chest/shoulders exercises. 

Baby steps are happening and while it feels good and I really really just want to sit around and brag, I hesitate to tell people because I know my track record. 

I've also been listening to this audiobook:


It's deep and poignant and not something that I can listen to in one sitting.  It's so overwhelming that I have to stop because I have to digest what I've just heard. 

Sunday, July 1, 2018

In every life we have some trouble...

But when you worry, you make it double.


While on vacation in another state two weeks ago, I got a call from a coworker saying that our company is being bought out. So I spent the rest of my vacation stressing out about the future of my job, and naturally I let myself be soothed by pancakes, ice cream and pizza.  While elbow deep in kettle corn, I remember saying "I just need to stress eat."  I totally knew what I was doing, but made no effort to stop the behavior.

I stepped on the scale after returning from vacation and nearly wept.  But I refuse to record that weight because I'm a coward.

The official office takeover happens on September 1st so I have two months to brush up my resume.  I intend to stay if the new company will have me, but I don't want to get too cocky.  Even though my job performance has been praised by the current company, the new one might not need me.

I don't know where I saw this, but I remember reading one time that women over 250 pounds can expect to have a harder time finding jobs and to be paid less.  I'm not quite at the 250-pound mark, but I'm close enough to worry about it.  I don't know why that's the magic number making employment more difficult, but it's no secret that weight discrimination is a real thing.

In case we needed ANOTHER reason to lose weight, this is it.