Regrets, I've had a few

In true Fat Girl Fashion, I went hog wild on Thanksgiving day.  Then on Friday I only went piglet wild, but still ate too much.  I did drag the husband on a bit of a nature walk so I got lots of steps in on Friday.

Today is Saturday and I solemnly swear to get back on track.  You see, I stepped on the scale this morning and had to fight back tears.  I'm only 3 pounds away from 2017's highest weight.  Hopefully part of that is just bloat from 2 days of overeating.  I don't want to start December off on such a high note.

How satisfying is it to know that January 1st is on a Monday?  That's like a dieter's dream.  The stars have aligned for the first day of the month/year/work week to start all at once.

Netflix addict

I've been a bachelorette for a couple of days.  While I miss my husband, it's amazing how clean the house stays when I'm the only one here. He's not THAT messy, but he uses towels and plates and likes to leave empty coffee cups sitting around.  I totally don't notice it until he's gone for a few days.  hahaha

I've now watched 7 Christmas movies in the last 2 weeks.  My Netflix queue is filled with cheesy Christmas movies and I LOVE IT!

I'm also watching Stranger Things 2.  This season is taking me a little longer to get through it.  Maybe it's because it's sci-fi heavy?

I did a really intense workout on Friday and a slightly less intense one on Saturday.  My thighs have been on fire for 2 days now and it's such an amazing feeling. 

The scale hasn't been budging, dammit. Maybe if I'd stay away from the tacos, eh?

26.2

The Rock N Roll marathon was in town today and I woke up before 5 a.m. to volunteer.  I'm not gonna lie, it was kind of fun to be out on the deserted highway in the dark.  It felt completely safe because cops were everywhere blocking roads and we had a large group of volunteers.

That picture of the moon was taken from the guardrail of a highway that's usually really busy.  But it was so serene early this morning.

We set up 8 tables on each side of the highway and stacked cups 3 layers high.  

We were out there 2.5 hours before the first runners came by.  I didn't get any pictures of runners because we were so busy handing out water, cheering them on, and cleaning up the empty cups on the ground.

I'm trying to post a picture of the Course Map, but I can't post a PDF?  WTF?

Anyway, my water station was between mile 12 and 13 on the front half.  Then the runners doubled back and I was around the 24 mile marker on the second half

I have never seen so many bloody nipples in my life.  YIKES.  One man was not just bleeding through his shirt, but it was streaming down.  Like two red eyes crying on his gray shirt.  I'm sure he cried later.

Three different men scared me when they were near the end.  One started to act disoriented and didn't run in a straight line, but he refused help.  The second one that scared me was trying to take a drink and he was shaking so hard that he couldn't get the cup to his mouth.  The third man that stressed me out grabbed his chest right by his heart as he passed by, but he barely slowed down.

None of them appeared particularly old and the second two appeared to be very physically fit.  I'm hoping everybody is ok. 

So this was all very motivating for me to attempt running again.  I'm very impressed with everybody who got out there and did it!

Happy November 1st

Last weigh in: 227
Today's weight: 226.5

So my only goal was to end October lighter than I started it.  AND OMG I DID IT.  It was only half of a pound, but it was half of a pound lighter!  hahahaha

Like, really, this time of year, I'm just happy to not be in a constant food coma.  Work has been nothing but candy baskets lately.  Plus I took my niece and nephew trick or treating, which means I had to do some quality control on their candy. 

Anyway, maybe November's goal will be the same.  I aim to be less than 226.5 by the end of the month!

Out with the old

In an attempt to find a little bit of cash, my husband is trying to sell some stuff on craigslist and in a yard sale.  I remembered there was an old box of my skinny clothes in the attic so he got it down for me to go through today. Look what I had written on it.

"Open only be people who weigh 160 lbs or less"

HAHHAHAHAHAHA

We totally disobeyed the writing and opened the box so that some of those clothes can be sold.  To be honest, I've aged since my skinny days and I have a different fashion sense now.  I don't think my old clothes are ugly, I just wouldn't wear them now.

Work work work work work

Work has been so stressful lately that it's waking me up in the middle of the night.  Admittedly, I made a fairly big mistake that is 100% my fault so, you know, I created my own stress in that situation.  But owning up to your mistakes doesn't make the stress go away.  Ughhhhh.

My husband still doesn't have a steady income so if I lost my job, we'd be up the creek without a paddle.  THAT'S stressful to think about.

It's definitely candy season at work.  I put an effort  in to pack healthy lunches, but just a glimpse of a fun size Snickers bar will send me off the rails.

I went to the doctor last week (or was it 2 weeks ago now?) and had a perfect BP reading of 110/80.  She said that having a very tight cuff can give a false reading that's too high.  Sure enough, when I took my blood pressure that day that said it was 132/93, I used a regular size cuff and it was painful.  I'm a big girl with a big arm, I need a large cuff.

She also said that my hemoglobin was 10.1 and she recommends I start taking an iron supplement, which I haven't started yet.  Maybe it'll increase my energy levels!!!

Went to the park today and only did 1.5 laps.  Guess that's better than nothing, but I sure miss the days of doing 4 laps and having seemingly endless energy.  Anyway, exercising in the morning makes me want to eat all day long.  I prefer evening workouts.

Ok, enough rambling.  Hope everybody has a good week!

Confessions of a chronic food abuser

Today's weight: 227

Highest weight of 2017: 236
Lowest weight of 2017:  221.5

The past few weeks have been awful and my excuses are very weak (yet plentiful).  I wanted to come here and list them all, but there's no need.  I let my feelings and stress levels dictate the amount of money spent in the McDonalds drive thru.  I let boredom lead me to bags of popcorn and boxes of Little Debbies.  I wash frustrations and anxiety down with soda.

My skinny work friend eats spoonfuls of natural peanut butter while telling me to follow a certain diet.  My other skinny work friend wants me to sign up for 5k races to run with her, even though she'd be lucky to get a brisk walk out of me for a whole 5k.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to deal with some god awful allergies I have going on right now.  I'm worried about having my blood pressure taken since the last time I took it on my own it was 132/93.

I realize I haven't written since getting back from the evacuation.  Thanks for all the well wishes!  We were without power few a couple of days and my neighbor got flooded, but we survived Hurricane Irma well.