Little by little

Today's weight: 229.5

That's -6.5 pounds for the month of May.

I've made a goal to fit into some old pants I have.  These are a size 16 from Old Navy and I can't even tell you how many years ago I got them.  I don't really buy pants with wide leg bottoms anymore, but I still want to fit into these again.

It's a minor miracle that they come up over my big butt.  They are TIGHT as can be on my thighs and don't come anywhere near being able to be zipped up.

I quickly took them off after these pictures were taken so that I didn't bust them at the seams :)

I've done well with exercise this past week.  I mean, it could always be better.  But it's better than last week and that's what I'm going for.  

4 pounder

Today's weight: 232 (-4 in three weeks!)

Currently Reading: The Whitstler by John Grisham

This book is pretty good!  You should read it.

I slept 9 hours last night and now my back is all stiff.  I don't know why I was so exhausted last night.

I'm starting to get the old lady chin.  You know the one that happens to overweight ladies over a certain age?  I'm afraid that I won't be able to get rid of it now even if I lose weight.  I've seen some people lose weight and have this double chin that just deflates and becomes a waddle.

Are there exercises to fix this?  Lotions?

I've been decent with diet and exercise lately.  Calorie counting really works for me, but I have this horrible habit of counting out a portion of M&Ms instead of eating an apple or something with better nutrition.  That's the only bad thing about counting calories, I can eat total crap as long as I don't go over 1645 calories.  The crazy thing is that I actually enjoy most fruits and vegetables.

Maybe I'm still making my little changes and the better nutrition is my next step?  I'm already working on being more active (although I could really kick this up) and my portion sizes.  So I'll make it my goal to continue doing these things while I work on eating healthier foods.

Day 1 of my 38th year

Today is my 38th birthday.  God, how does time fly?  It feels like just yesterday I was living in my mom's house finishing up my senior year in college, and 9/11 was still a fresh wound.  Sometimes those days seem so far away it's impossible to imagine them.  Other days (like right now), I can remember everything about those days so vividly.

I'm not sad about turning another year older.  It even feels a little hopeful right now.

Today started off well!  I actually woke up and did a morning workout.  While I consider myself a morning person, I don't really like to exercise in the mornings because, ugh, I just woke up.  I broke out one of my oldies but goodies that I used to do all the time back in the day.

It has been so long since I've done this video that I forgot some of the moves, which is crazy considering how many times I've done it!

I'm planning to do another morning workout on Thursday.

Day 1 (again)

Calories: 1622

Exercise: About 25 minutes of upper body weights.  

I have some 5, 8, and 10 pound dumbells that I use for arms, chest and shoulders exercises.  My arms are so sore right now and I love it.

It's already getting miserably hot here.  I won't be doing a whole lot of outdoor exercising for the next few months.

I like finding exercise routines on Pinterest and blogilates.  Now if I will just stick with them.

My husband and I went to Carmax to see what they would give me for my car today.  We just did it for fun since my car is almost paid off and I'm not interested in acquiring any new debt at this time.  I like how they give you a quote and then you have 7 days to make a decision.  When I do enter the car buying market, I'll probably go to Carmax first.

Ugh, time to clean the kitchen.

Blogger.com doesn't like me

Today's weight: 236.0

Number of days my husband has been unemployed: 91

He keeps telling me he has leads on jobs. Leads don't pay the mortgage, buddy.

Can you tell I'm bitter? Our money will run out in roughly 4 weeks. I'm starting to panic and he's so laissez-faire about it. Ugh.

When I was in my 20s I spent almost a year in New York City and it was there that I realized homelessness was my biggest fear in life, and here I am worried that it is looming.

I've been trying to log onto blogger on my laptop from time to time, but it won't go anywhere. So this morning I pulled out the iPad and typed this up on the blogger app. Is the site having issues or is it just my old laptop?