Sunday, October 15, 2017

Work work work work work

Work has been so stressful lately that it's waking me up in the middle of the night.  Admittedly, I made a fairly big mistake that is 100% my fault so, you know, I created my own stress in that situation.  But owning up to your mistakes doesn't make the stress go away.  Ughhhhh.

My husband still doesn't have a steady income so if I lost my job, we'd be up the creek without a paddle.  THAT'S stressful to think about.

It's definitely candy season at work.  I put an effort  in to pack healthy lunches, but just a glimpse of a fun size Snickers bar will send me off the rails.

I went to the doctor last week (or was it 2 weeks ago now?) and had a perfect BP reading of 110/80.  She said that having a very tight cuff can give a false reading that's too high.  Sure enough, when I took my blood pressure that day that said it was 132/93, I used a regular size cuff and it was painful.  I'm a big girl with a big arm, I need a large cuff.

She also said that my hemoglobin was 10.1 and she recommends I start taking an iron supplement, which I haven't started yet.  Maybe it'll increase my energy levels!!!

Went to the park today and only did 1.5 laps.  Guess that's better than nothing, but I sure miss the days of doing 4 laps and having seemingly endless energy.  Anyway, exercising in the morning makes me want to eat all day long.  I prefer evening workouts.

Ok, enough rambling.  Hope everybody has a good week!

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Confessions of a chronic food abuser

Today's weight: 227

Highest weight of 2017: 236
Lowest weight of 2017:  221.5

The past few weeks have been awful and my excuses are very weak (yet plentiful).  I wanted to come here and list them all, but there's no need.  I let my feelings and stress levels dictate the amount of money spent in the McDonalds drive thru.  I let boredom lead me to bags of popcorn and boxes of Little Debbies.  I wash frustrations and anxiety down with soda.

My skinny work friend eats spoonfuls of natural peanut butter while telling me to follow a certain diet.  My other skinny work friend wants me to sign up for 5k races to run with her, even though she'd be lucky to get a brisk walk out of me for a whole 5k.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to deal with some god awful allergies I have going on right now.  I'm worried about having my blood pressure taken since the last time I took it on my own it was 132/93.

I realize I haven't written since getting back from the evacuation.  Thanks for all the well wishes!  We were without power few a couple of days and my neighbor got flooded, but we survived Hurricane Irma well.

Monday, September 11, 2017

Evacuation Nation

Due to a storm named Irma, I left home Friday morning under a mandatory evacuation and re-entry isn't open until Tuesday after 6 am.

Therefore there will be no weigh in this week. I'm ashamed that being away from home led me straight to chips and fast food. But it is what it is.

Hopefully I'll be on the road early tomorrow. I bet traffic is a bear.

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Don't drink beer the night before weigh-in, kids

Today's weight: 225.5 (+3.5 from last week)

That's beer.  All beer.

I bought a 6-pack back on the Fourth of July and never touched it. Last night I changed that.

I thought about moving this week's weigh in until Wednesday so some of the bloat could go away, but in the spirit of honesty, here I am!

Hoping this will make next week's weigh in REALLY GOOD.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

'Sabout Dang Time

Today's weight: 222 (-2 from last week)

Finally had a loss!  August was a month of struggles for me in the weight department.

I'm ending this month a half of a pound up from the start, but things could be much much worse.

I keep thinking I should make myself blog halfway through the week for some updates.  You know, maybe throw in a photo here and there.   Maybe that will help with accountability.

Oh, today will suck since I have to get a root canal.  My second one this year!  And since I've already used the hell out of my dental insurance, I'm straight out of pocket for this at $1,200.  My husband is still unemployed and I'm a little panicky over this.  I signed up for a Care Credit card, which is only to be used for medical and dental bills and it's interest free for 12 months, thankfully.

My heart goes out to Houston and all of their flooding right now.  I have a couple of friends who live there and I know they are safe because they evacuated before Harvey hit.  I've never been there, but I've heard it's a happening city.

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Downward (upward?) spiral

Today's weight: 224 (+.5)

Dammit dammit dammit. That's three weeks of gaining in a row.  THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING.

I almost didn't log in this morning because I didn't want to have to write this.  But I don't want it to keep happening!!!!

My first Tuesday weigh in of August was 221.5.  I really want my last one, which is next week, to be lower than that.  But now we're looking at needing to lose 3 pounds in one week.  I know that's totally possibly, but my track record is so horrible lately that it probably won't happen.

I want to cry.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

This little light of mine...

The craziness in Charlottesville has been so scary.  If you are a parent, please teach your children to love one another.  I don't understand blindly hating people.  We all deserve to exist.

...I'm gonna let it shine.

Today's weight: 223.5 (+1 from last week)

That's 2 weeks in a row of gains so you can probably tell that I haven't been a good dieter lately.  For some reason my mojo has run away from home.  I actually did some exercise this past weekend, which was a nice change.  But I also ate like a farm animal.

I started off August as 221.5 and I would like to end this month less than that.  Even if it's just half a pound down, I'd like to get there.

I REALLY like my dentist.  She's a young woman who actually seems to care about her patients, but today she made me kinda mad.  Not mad, per se, but kinda.  I went in for a sore tooth and she said I've chipped the filling in that tooth but that she wasn't going to replace it. She just put some fluoride varnish on it and said that if it doesn't work, I need a root canal.  Ugh!  Why didn't she want to replace the filling?  Like she didn't give me a good reason (or any reason at all).  I can't afford another damn root canal.  So disappointed.