Tuesday, August 29, 2017

'Sabout Dang Time

Today's weight: 222 (-2 from last week)

Finally had a loss!  August was a month of struggles for me in the weight department.

I'm ending this month a half of a pound up from the start, but things could be much much worse.

I keep thinking I should make myself blog halfway through the week for some updates.  You know, maybe throw in a photo here and there.   Maybe that will help with accountability.

Oh, today will suck since I have to get a root canal.  My second one this year!  And since I've already used the hell out of my dental insurance, I'm straight out of pocket for this at $1,200.  My husband is still unemployed and I'm a little panicky over this.  I signed up for a Care Credit card, which is only to be used for medical and dental bills and it's interest free for 12 months, thankfully.

My heart goes out to Houston and all of their flooding right now.  I have a couple of friends who live there and I know they are safe because they evacuated before Harvey hit.  I've never been there, but I've heard it's a happening city.

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Downward (upward?) spiral

Today's weight: 224 (+.5)

Dammit dammit dammit. That's three weeks of gaining in a row.  THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING.

I almost didn't log in this morning because I didn't want to have to write this.  But I don't want it to keep happening!!!!

My first Tuesday weigh in of August was 221.5.  I really want my last one, which is next week, to be lower than that.  But now we're looking at needing to lose 3 pounds in one week.  I know that's totally possibly, but my track record is so horrible lately that it probably won't happen.

I want to cry.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

This little light of mine...

The craziness in Charlottesville has been so scary.  If you are a parent, please teach your children to love one another.  I don't understand blindly hating people.  We all deserve to exist.

...I'm gonna let it shine.

Today's weight: 223.5 (+1 from last week)

That's 2 weeks in a row of gains so you can probably tell that I haven't been a good dieter lately.  For some reason my mojo has run away from home.  I actually did some exercise this past weekend, which was a nice change.  But I also ate like a farm animal.

I started off August as 221.5 and I would like to end this month less than that.  Even if it's just half a pound down, I'd like to get there.

I REALLY like my dentist.  She's a young woman who actually seems to care about her patients, but today she made me kinda mad.  Not mad, per se, but kinda.  I went in for a sore tooth and she said I've chipped the filling in that tooth but that she wasn't going to replace it. She just put some fluoride varnish on it and said that if it doesn't work, I need a root canal.  Ugh!  Why didn't she want to replace the filling?  Like she didn't give me a good reason (or any reason at all).  I can't afford another damn root canal.  So disappointed.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Struggle Bus

Today's weight: 222.5 (+1 from last week)

I've been incredibly lazy this past week so I'm not surprised by the gain.  I didn't exercise a bit over the weekend and that's usually when I do my long walks or long workout videos.  Instead, I sat in the recliner for hours.

There's nobody to blame but myself.  It only takes a week to get me firmly into a cycle of laziness.  The longer I go without exercise, the less energy I have during the day, and then the less desire I have to workout.  It's so frustrating yet I'm the only one who can control it.  Ugh.

Anyway, tonight I have a 4-hour drive because I have a work thing out of town.  The hotel has a gym, so my goal is to leave work early so that I can get there around 6ish (depending on traffic in Atlanta) so that I can spend some time on the treadmill before eating dinner.

Wish me luck because apparently I need it :)

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

More of the same

Today's weight: 221.5 (-1.5 from last week)

The gain from last week is gone, which is great, but if I'm being honest, I'm a little disappointed that I didn't lose more.

My eating was spot on last week so I wanted one of those weigh ins where I had a whoosh and was suddenly under 220.  Sigh, maybe another day.

The husband and I have been having some problems lately.  I'm not sure how much I'll go into it on my diet blog, but after 18 years together, I'm at my wit's end.  I know the biggest problem is that he doesn't have a job and doesn't seem to want one.  It's putting a huge strain on me.

I was basically a child when we started dating and I've never had another serious relationship.  So this part about us struggling is really rough on me.  I love him and want to work on our problems, but the problems won't resolve if I'm the only one trying to work on them.