Monday, September 11, 2017

Evacuation Nation

Due to a storm named Irma, I left home Friday morning under a mandatory evacuation and re-entry isn't open until Tuesday after 6 am.

Therefore there will be no weigh in this week. I'm ashamed that being away from home led me straight to chips and fast food. But it is what it is.

Hopefully I'll be on the road early tomorrow. I bet traffic is a bear.

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Don't drink beer the night before weigh-in, kids

Today's weight: 225.5 (+3.5 from last week)

That's beer.  All beer.

I bought a 6-pack back on the Fourth of July and never touched it. Last night I changed that.

I thought about moving this week's weigh in until Wednesday so some of the bloat could go away, but in the spirit of honesty, here I am!

Hoping this will make next week's weigh in REALLY GOOD.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

'Sabout Dang Time

Today's weight: 222 (-2 from last week)

Finally had a loss!  August was a month of struggles for me in the weight department.

I'm ending this month a half of a pound up from the start, but things could be much much worse.

I keep thinking I should make myself blog halfway through the week for some updates.  You know, maybe throw in a photo here and there.   Maybe that will help with accountability.

Oh, today will suck since I have to get a root canal.  My second one this year!  And since I've already used the hell out of my dental insurance, I'm straight out of pocket for this at $1,200.  My husband is still unemployed and I'm a little panicky over this.  I signed up for a Care Credit card, which is only to be used for medical and dental bills and it's interest free for 12 months, thankfully.

My heart goes out to Houston and all of their flooding right now.  I have a couple of friends who live there and I know they are safe because they evacuated before Harvey hit.  I've never been there, but I've heard it's a happening city.

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Downward (upward?) spiral

Today's weight: 224 (+.5)

Dammit dammit dammit. That's three weeks of gaining in a row.  THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING.

I almost didn't log in this morning because I didn't want to have to write this.  But I don't want it to keep happening!!!!

My first Tuesday weigh in of August was 221.5.  I really want my last one, which is next week, to be lower than that.  But now we're looking at needing to lose 3 pounds in one week.  I know that's totally possibly, but my track record is so horrible lately that it probably won't happen.

I want to cry.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

This little light of mine...

The craziness in Charlottesville has been so scary.  If you are a parent, please teach your children to love one another.  I don't understand blindly hating people.  We all deserve to exist.

...I'm gonna let it shine.

Today's weight: 223.5 (+1 from last week)

That's 2 weeks in a row of gains so you can probably tell that I haven't been a good dieter lately.  For some reason my mojo has run away from home.  I actually did some exercise this past weekend, which was a nice change.  But I also ate like a farm animal.

I started off August as 221.5 and I would like to end this month less than that.  Even if it's just half a pound down, I'd like to get there.


I REALLY like my dentist.  She's a young woman who actually seems to care about her patients, but today she made me kinda mad.  Not mad, per se, but kinda.  I went in for a sore tooth and she said I've chipped the filling in that tooth but that she wasn't going to replace it. She just put some fluoride varnish on it and said that if it doesn't work, I need a root canal.  Ugh!  Why didn't she want to replace the filling?  Like she didn't give me a good reason (or any reason at all).  I can't afford another damn root canal.  So disappointed.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Struggle Bus

Today's weight: 222.5 (+1 from last week)

I've been incredibly lazy this past week so I'm not surprised by the gain.  I didn't exercise a bit over the weekend and that's usually when I do my long walks or long workout videos.  Instead, I sat in the recliner for hours.

There's nobody to blame but myself.  It only takes a week to get me firmly into a cycle of laziness.  The longer I go without exercise, the less energy I have during the day, and then the less desire I have to workout.  It's so frustrating yet I'm the only one who can control it.  Ugh.

Anyway, tonight I have a 4-hour drive because I have a work thing out of town.  The hotel has a gym, so my goal is to leave work early so that I can get there around 6ish (depending on traffic in Atlanta) so that I can spend some time on the treadmill before eating dinner.

Wish me luck because apparently I need it :)

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

More of the same

Today's weight: 221.5 (-1.5 from last week)

The gain from last week is gone, which is great, but if I'm being honest, I'm a little disappointed that I didn't lose more.

My eating was spot on last week so I wanted one of those weigh ins where I had a whoosh and was suddenly under 220.  Sigh, maybe another day.

The husband and I have been having some problems lately.  I'm not sure how much I'll go into it on my diet blog, but after 18 years together, I'm at my wit's end.  I know the biggest problem is that he doesn't have a job and doesn't seem to want one.  It's putting a huge strain on me.

I was basically a child when we started dating and I've never had another serious relationship.  So this part about us struggling is really rough on me.  I love him and want to work on our problems, but the problems won't resolve if I'm the only one trying to work on them.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

NOOoooooooooo

Today's weight: 223 (+1.5 from last week. Boo. Hiss.)

I was insatiable on Sunday.  I ate from the minute I woke up until the minute I went to bed.  I even tried to take a nap to keep myself from eating for an hour, and I woke up craving Twizzlers.  Like, really, who craves Twizzlers?

My period is due to start tomorrow.  Can that be my excuse?

Oh!  I have another excuse!  Sunday night my husband tried to weigh himself and the scale flashed a red 0 and that's all.  So I tried to weigh and it also flashed a red 0.  He replaced the battery last night so maybe the new battery made me gain a pound and a half.

I'll just keep thinking of excuses if I don't get up from this computer.  Time to just buckle down and do the damn thing.

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Miracle weigh in

Today's weight: 221.5 (-.5 from last week)

Well, I'm very happy with this weigh in because I've only been back from vacation for 1.5 days. Vacation consisted of burgers, pizza, beer, ice cream, etc.  but it was fun! I'm ready to be on track and to start exercising again. Isn't it weird to be at a point where exercise is fun?

I made an effort to control my portions while on vacation without denying myself any of the good stuff. Obviously that strategy worked!!!!!

Going back to work was so hard on Monday. I still have so much catching up to do. I'd rather go back to bed, hahaha.


Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Quickie

Today's weight: 222 (-1.5 from last week)

I'm up very early because I leave today to drive to Ohio to see my family. I'm hoping to time it just right so that I miss rush hour in Charlotte, NC.

The weight loss isn't coming off as fast as it did in the beginning, which is to be expected. But it sure was nice to see the weight fall off the first month.

Time to shower and hit the road!

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Independence Day weigh in

Today's weight: 223.5 (+.5 from last week)

Happy Fourth of July!!!!!!!

I'm glad it's only a half of a pound gain from last week. I kinda overate on Saturday and then I had tortilla chips last night so I thought the salt would kill my weigh in. So yeah, I'm happy it's only a half of a pound!

One of the first things I thought when I first started losing weight was, "I can't wait until my stomach is smaller than my boobs." I must've forgotten that the boobs are the first thing to go. Sniff.

Next week will be challenging as I'm driving up to see my mom. That'll be 6 days of being out of my routine. I just need to maintain control. Im actually a little excited for a road trip! It's a 12-hour drive each way. It's just nice to get away for a few days, even if it's not an adventure filled vacation (although I would like to go on one of those soon).

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Is it really almost July?

Today's weight: 223 (-1 from last week)

This is a good weigh in considering I ate pizza twice last week!

I know I've talked about my knock knees before, but I'm obsessing over them. I really hope that exercise and weight loss will help correct this problem.

I'm lying on my back in that picture with my feet up the wall.  I feel like I'm so deformed in that picture. I know I'm still a fairly mild case, but everything starts off mild before becoming severe.  Standing with my feet together is very difficult and can't be done for more than a few seconds. 

I've been doing some stretches that I found on YouTube for knock knees, but I don't see a difference yet. I just need to keep working on improving my overall physical wellbeing.

I've already picked out my workout for tonight.


I haven't done this DVD in ages.  It's going to be so hard! I'm honestly looking forward to it because my workouts have been feeling kind of easy lately(Yay!).


Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Another day, another dollar

Today's weight: 224 (-2 from last week)

I'm very happy with the 2 pound loss. I didn't get my long walks in this weekend due to the extreme heat. On Saturday I quit after 25 minutes. On Sunday I made it 40 minutes. Usually I do an hour each day.

I did come home and ride my stationary bike though. 

This was a 3-day weekend for me and I'm dreading going back to work today. I like my job, but I like being lazy even more. 

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Run like you stole something

Today's weight: 226

That's a 3 pound drop since last week so I stepped on the scale 4 times to make sure it was right. But I only lost half of a pound the previous week so I think it was just evening itself out.

I've been adding some running to my walks lately.  I'm always so impressed by people who run and I've attempted to be a runner numerous times, but I just don't stick with it.  Part of my problem is that I'm slow and my endurance is poor and I give up quickly.

So I bought this book.


Honestly, I bought it a couple of years ago, but have never really read it until now.  Jeff Galloway's approach to running is to take it very conservatively and to have lots of walking breaks.  That's a plan I can get behind!!!  Both days last weekend I set out for a 3 mile walk/run.  It was mostly walking and while I was sore from my short running intervals, I felt good!  I'm not signing up for a marathon or anything, but maybe I can actually call myself a runner some day soon?!?

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Point Five

Today's weight: 229 (-.5 from last week)

I'm only down half of a pound from last week, but two people at work have recently asked me if I've lost weight.  So that makes up for the very small loss :)

My exercise wasn't as good last week.  Usually I try to taking long walks on the weekends, but I got so busy on Sunday doing chores and errands that I didn't exercise at all.  This week will be better since I think I'm caught up on all of the time consuming things.

I need to start watching House of Cards from my exercise bike instead of the recliner.  There's so much good tv out there these days.  How did we live before Netflix?

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Little by little

Today's weight: 229.5

That's -6.5 pounds for the month of May.

I've made a goal to fit into some old pants I have.  These are a size 16 from Old Navy and I can't even tell you how many years ago I got them.  I don't really buy pants with wide leg bottoms anymore, but I still want to fit into these again.


It's a minor miracle that they come up over my big butt.  They are TIGHT as can be on my thighs and don't come anywhere near being able to be zipped up.

I quickly took them off after these pictures were taken so that I didn't bust them at the seams :)

I've done well with exercise this past week.  I mean, it could always be better.  But it's better than last week and that's what I'm going for.  

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

4 pounder

Today's weight: 232 (-4 in three weeks!)

Currently Reading: The Whitstler by John Grisham

This book is pretty good!  You should read it.

I slept 9 hours last night and now my back is all stiff.  I don't know why I was so exhausted last night.

I'm starting to get the old lady chin.  You know the one that happens to overweight ladies over a certain age?  I'm afraid that I won't be able to get rid of it now even if I lose weight.  I've seen some people lose weight and have this double chin that just deflates and becomes a waddle.




Are there exercises to fix this?  Lotions?

I've been decent with diet and exercise lately.  Calorie counting really works for me, but I have this horrible habit of counting out a portion of M&Ms instead of eating an apple or something with better nutrition.  That's the only bad thing about counting calories, I can eat total crap as long as I don't go over 1645 calories.  The crazy thing is that I actually enjoy most fruits and vegetables.

Maybe I'm still making my little changes and the better nutrition is my next step?  I'm already working on being more active (although I could really kick this up) and my portion sizes.  So I'll make it my goal to continue doing these things while I work on eating healthier foods.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Day 1 of my 38th year

Today is my 38th birthday.  God, how does time fly?  It feels like just yesterday I was living in my mom's house finishing up my senior year in college, and 9/11 was still a fresh wound.  Sometimes those days seem so far away it's impossible to imagine them.  Other days (like right now), I can remember everything about those days so vividly.

I'm not sad about turning another year older.  It even feels a little hopeful right now.

Today started off well!  I actually woke up and did a morning workout.  While I consider myself a morning person, I don't really like to exercise in the mornings because, ugh, I just woke up.  I broke out one of my oldies but goodies that I used to do all the time back in the day.



It has been so long since I've done this video that I forgot some of the moves, which is crazy considering how many times I've done it!

I'm planning to do another morning workout on Thursday.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Day 1 (again)

Calories: 1622
Exercise: About 25 minutes of upper body weights.  

I have some 5, 8, and 10 pound dumbells that I use for arms, chest and shoulders exercises.  My arms are so sore right now and I love it.

It's already getting miserably hot here.  I won't be doing a whole lot of outdoor exercising for the next few months.

I like finding exercise routines on Pinterest and blogilates.  Now if I will just stick with them.

My husband and I went to Carmax to see what they would give me for my car today.  We just did it for fun since my car is almost paid off and I'm not interested in acquiring any new debt at this time.  I like how they give you a quote and then you have 7 days to make a decision.  When I do enter the car buying market, I'll probably go to Carmax first.

Ugh, time to clean the kitchen.




Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Blogger.com doesn't like me

Today's weight: 236.0
Number of days my husband has been unemployed: 91

He keeps telling me he has leads on jobs. Leads don't pay the mortgage, buddy.

Can you tell I'm bitter? Our money will run out in roughly 4 weeks. I'm starting to panic and he's so laissez-faire about it. Ugh.

When I was in my 20s I spent almost a year in New York City and it was there that I realized homelessness was my biggest fear in life, and here I am worried that it is looming.

I've been trying to log onto blogger on my laptop from time to time, but it won't go anywhere. So this morning I pulled out the iPad and typed this up on the blogger app. Is the site having issues or is it just my old laptop?

Sunday, February 12, 2017

The show must go on

So my husband still hasn't found a job since my last post, but he's still looking.  His mother has offered to pay him to do some yard work (she has several acres) so at least he'll get a little bit of money next week.

Also, I hate to admit this, but we're cashing in his 401K.  Thankfully he had it!  I don't have one at my job, so I'm very happy he had it.  I know cashing it in is a big no-no in the world of personal finance, but this is an emergency.

He also admitted to having opened a credit card without telling me.  He didn't think it was a big deal because the limit was only $1,000.  And he's right, it wasn't a big deal that he opened it when he was employed.  Now it kind of sucks.  Again, thankfully he had that 401K.

The only good thing about this whole fiasco is that he's let me take over all of the finances.  I've been a tight wad for the last couple of years :)

OH!  And because when it rains it pours, I started having tooth pain a couple of weeks ago.  On Friday it got to the point that it was throbbing so I called the dentist.  Of course the earliest I could be seen is next Tuesday.  The pain has subsided a bit, but it's still there every now and then.  This is on a tooth that already had a root canal.

Onto my weight....

It's been terrible.  I'm a stress eater!  And the cheapest foods out there are high carb and low nutritional value, which means I'm plumper than ever. I haven't actually weighed because then, you know, I'd have to face the music and WHO WANTS TO DO THAT?????

I guess I'll weigh in the morning.  Or maybe the next morning.

Monday, January 30, 2017

Misery loves company

I didn't weigh myself this morning because I ate so much yesterday and just generally felt miserable with life.

THEN my husband lost his job today.

Like can anything go right? Ever?

Monday, January 23, 2017

Same ol' same ol'

Today's weight was the same as last week's: 235.

Sure, I could have done things differently, but I feel like I'm actually eating less and moving more so the slow weight loss is really frustrating.

I guess I should be happy with that number since I started my period yesterday.

Now I'm off to do some yoga!

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

That's better

Today's weigh in was 235.  That's 1 pound down from the first of the year, but 1.5 pounds down from last week.

When I was in my 20s, I could easily lose a pound every couple of days.

Ahh, to be young again.

Anyway, I'm happy to see the scale go in the right direction.

Onward!

Monday, January 16, 2017

Not the sharpest tool in the shed

I woke up and had a cup of coffee, like normal.  I took a shower and brushed my teeth, like normal.

THEN I REALIZED IT'S MONDAY!  I forgot to weigh in and any real dieter knows that the only weigh in that counts is the one first thing in the morning, completely naked, after using the bathroom, before consuming a single drop of anything.

I went ahead and stepped on the scale and it said 237, which is .5 of a pound up from last week.  But it's also with a belly full of coffee and wet hair.

So....tomorrow?

Monday, January 9, 2017

What fresh hell is this?

I weighed in this morning and gained half of  a pound. Can you believe that?  I've actually been tracking my food and exercising a bit.

Ugh, stupid body.

I notice that in my last post I said weigh in day was Tuesday, but that's wrong.  It's Mondays.  Maybe next Monday will be better.

I'm hoping today's crappy weigh in is because I couldn't poop this morning.  Let's go with that...

Monday, January 2, 2017

Blank Slate

Today's weigh in was 236.

Let us move on.

I took some pictures, please excuse the mess and the dirty mirror.  I plan to clean today, I swear.



I should have asked my husband to take the pictures because the angle is all weird on these.  I'll have to do some better ones in another post.

Do you notice how I'm starting to get knock-kneed?  It's my right knee that bends inward.  Luckily it's still slight at this point, but it is worrisome.  I assume this is related to being so overweight for so long?  I'm not having any pain yet (KNOCK ON WOOD....REAL WOOD), but I know that things like this only get worse with age.

There will never be a thigh gap for me...hahah.

I've found a good YouTube video by a physical therapist that gives exercises, mostly stretches, to help reduce knock-knees.  I'm hoping this will help my legs.  Oh yeah, I'm also hoping that losing weight will help my legs.

So I guess Tuesdays will be my weigh in day from now on.   I'm feeling motivated!