One of the many agonies of being fat is that I can't find a workout partner on my level. One of my BFFs is a big girl like me and has a Planet Fitness membership like me. We plan to go just about every weekend, but one of us always cancels. This has been going on for a few months now.
Then I have my skinny work friends who want to workout with me and I'm so frustratingly slow and NOT on their levels that I just can't make myself go with them. These are girls who run and spin and do all the other things I dream about. So when I'm out of breath 10 minutes into a walk and they are yelling "let's go, pick up the pace!" I feel terrible about myself.
My husband has a very physical job and is so wiped out by the time he gets home that he doesn't want to do anything except sit on the couch.
I just need to find my own motivation. I need to worry about my health and take control of my own lifestyle.
I realize this post sounds a little whiny, but maybe someone out there can relate.
I'm in a fancy hotel room in Atlanta tonight because we have a work seminar thing all day tomorrow. I'm not very excited about hitting the rush hour traffic tomorrow evening, but it is what it is.